Did I ever tell you that years ago I escaped 
the icy sidewalks and falling snow to buy my first 

for a girl named Judy?  In Kresge's five-and-dime? 
Early dark made the front windows into slabs of black, 

so with card in hand, I drifted down the aisle 
to my favorite spot past the pink lingerie, and dreamed 

at a tank teeming with goldfish, watching them 
spurt and glide, balance perfectly still, before facing 

that brittle outside dark again.  Oh, don't worry, 
you'll have chocolate, and roses too, but remember 

how once, windward of the jetty, we lost the engine? 
I drop the anchor quick but those quarry rocks, 

blacker for the sun and pale blue water, keep coming 
closer and closer.  My eyes race down the rope 

through thirty feet of water clear as dreamfright 
to where the anchor flukes are plowing the bottom, 

then catch on coral, halting those ragged black rocks 
only ten feet from our hull.  Then it was you 

who lifted the cowl, found where the coil 
wire frayed, and gave us fire again. 

So we lingered, engine idling, to watch beneath the boat 
a huge school of spade fish shaped and striped 

like those french angels our son used to have in his tank. 
Suddenly they were gone. 

Which is to say, you always take me back 
to teenage gold and the primary colors 

of coral and communal fish, that pale blue 
water on which our down-looking faces float, 

slide into each other and eclipse, 
as in a dream-one more way 

that we merge, rarely guessing how often we drift 
into, away from, around, and through. 

for Phyllis